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Nothing is what it Seems

Posted: 06/26/2011 in Life

Yes, I am cruel…

Writing here in this blog, I don’t ever feel that time here is wasted even though my life has taken on many new dimensions and paths since this past March. I feel that this is like ice cream with a piece of cake. Somethings should be kept as a treat, enjoyed more, causes less stress and guilt when done only in moderation.

Your mission, should you choose to accept it, is to live your life.

My challenge for all of you is this:
Sacrifice some of your online life for the real world. Do anything other than sit in a chair staring at a screen. Start a project you have been thinking of, read a book, watch a movie, go to a show or museum. Create something real and tangible that you can hold in your hands, something that is a part of your life that you won’t lose if your computer should crash tomorrow. Anything at all that you can achieve in the time that you normally spend online and tell me about it. I think you will be amazed at all you can do. Nothing we do is wasted time, sharing with others is one of the most human things we can do, but without growth, what do we really have to contribute. Go out, do something and come back and share it with me….

 1.  I started being active on Deviant Art. I have won two contests and sold two prints and have made a great many new friends. 

2.  I have taken over 500 pictures with my new Canon camera. 

3.  I have watched about 30 movies on Netflix, too. I forgot how much I really enjoy taking a shower after a long day, lighting candles, pouring a glass of wine and losing myself to a really great movie with my wife. 

4.  I have repainted our home and did some landscaping. 

5.  I have read three books and wrote/published two new poems.

 I can’t wait to see what you can come up with!


Posted: 06/02/2011 in Life, Love, Thoughts

Little girl

white frock,

touches Death:

a morbid

old man,

ever so


with the

wondering sparkling

wand of



With the new year upon me, I feel the following song is so appropriate for my life. These days, I am making new changes. Changes that affect me and changes that affect how I see and treat others. I am tired of the hum-drum, dramatic, boring and ignorance that I have allowed to unravel me, but NO MORE! No more insincere! I am taking a stand to let that all go. To let the past go. There is nothing I can do about it. Those things and people will claim they do nothing or have never done anything wrong, but I challenge them to look into the mirror and just watch. You will see that you’re empty.

I did, and alas the changes. My apology goes to myself, for allowing any of that to ever come into play within my life.

I am proud of who I am and who I have becoming. Being thankful doesn’t even begin to cover it in all its glory, as I have been blessed in more ways possible. These last few weeks have been amazing. I have no other words. 

Peeling The Layer

Posted: 12/14/2010 in Life
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Regardless of the facts, thoughts make the world go around. Spin, turn; whatever your reasoning for night and day. You can’t see it, all you know is freeze and unfreeze. Your mind is shadow, brightness makes a complete circle but can’t penetrate. When you are enlightened truth becomes reality. Escape isn’t the only choice, but it’s all you think at that moment. Time stops when you sleep, it’s a giant charade. A game designed to see how long you can remember how you got to where you are. A motion in a clock doesn’t measure time, time doesn’t exist.

Consciousness is a dream. Beautiful washes of pulsating colors, a thousand frequencies interpreted as life to your mind. Controlling any aspect is a crime. Falling asleep is one way out. A flame comes unlit, the radio plays in the background and you feel a little chill. Everyone acts like children when they sleep alone.

You say the facts are all you need to live by. It would make sense if you’d believe it. The facts don’t exist. Everyone plays the game on you. Amazingly fine, an infinite jigsaw puzzle throughout your head. Light as you can get, before you die, you see it all. And then you don’t want it back, ever again. All you do is give up. And that’s the end.

But it’s not. You’re still here. Life, the illusion you thought that would fade away with time, still needs you around. A receiver for every broadcast, message sender. We all are, trying to get the highest thrill. Themes we think we are, some divine paper boy sent from a high deity to speak the truth. We don’t let on, we don’t pretend. We only do the shuffle and pretend to pretend. Your thoughts are nothing but electrical impulses, turned on by an opportunity to mate or kill, your sadistic side tells you.

Just because you feel something doesn’t make it real. The best ideas come by mistake. Someone misinterprets an expression by you and calls it brilliance. Or you yourself fail in trying to express the original vision but you create something greater as a result.

Mistakes are the only unique ideas.

“When you make it your mission in life to make someone miserable, all that is doing is showing the world what a sad,  lonely and unhappy person you really are.” – Unknown


Posted: 11/17/2010 in Life
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Obviously, I have hinted at the direction my thought process is taking but have not blatantly spelled it out as I am about to do. First and foremost, I am taking a look at current, soon to be antiquated notions of success and asking myself what is truly important in this holographic expansion known as the game of life.
Clearly I am creating a polemic against mindless greed and gross over consumption. In addition, I am condemning the destruction of our ecosystem for personal power. The inquisitor emphasis within this culture has become a cancer which has eaten away at true objective and rational conjecture over what is proper for this planet and the human race. I am also stating that a real revolution against forces of gluttonous excess and greed cannot occur if the society and particularly the youth or future of this society are lethargic and complacent about activity and the maintenance of their very bodies. A revolution cannot occur if it is merely based on mindless overthrow without a new paradigm shifting the direction of our values. If we do not learn to use the body/mind technologies at our disposal, we cannot truly understand the relationship of our perceptual energy to the alchemy of phenomenal transformation. There can be no model of the universe which conveys an accurate picture of the way things really work without the inclusion of this body/mined complex into it. Whether or not an individual is financially damaged or opulent in no way determines that individuals worth relative to self-hood and the universe.

Money is meaningless if obesity is a possession. Falling prey to social madness or trends, whether consumer based or political is also of little value in the real scheme of things. If money, external material power, if weaponry and a massive army, if consumption or ownership of meaningless externals do not determine true success of the individual ready to enter the new evolutionary phase about to begin, what does? As I have stated all along, an individual will not be judged by superficiality, by societal possessions, but by real physical and mental health, by a real will to overcome the entropic forces of death and decay. If one cannot be judged by meaningless acts of consumerism or ownership, one can only be judged by the primary components comprising a totality of individual character. The most important aspect of this totality is ones drive to transcend temporal entropy. It is the most noble quest of humanity and the aim or focus of my investigation. It is the quest for immortality.


Posted: 11/05/2010 in Life
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Nirvana means to extinguish the burning fires of the three poisons: greed, anger and ignorance. This can be accomplished by letting go of dissatisfaction.


Posted: 10/17/2010 in Life
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The strength of my spirit ascends like a bloody sunrise

Out of the haze away from yesterday where shadows haunt me

Disperse like smoke, ashes whisper to the ground

Reveal the gleaming facets of tomorrow’s clarity 

Life in General

Posted: 10/07/2010 in Life

If people were real, life might be very scary. I think this because we are always afraid of the unknown and I am having a hard time with finding people who are genuine. That have absolute to their life and want something more than just the ordinary. Are not people bored with their lives? Don’t people want *more*?

I do. I am tired of the ordinary. The hum drum of the daily dose of “hi, how are you, let me tell you about my day”…tell me something interesting. Tell me something frightening. Make me do something. Challenge me. Give me something to be enthralled with.

I get bored easy. Sometimes too easy. I need the challenge. I need that mental stimulation. If you want boredom or the same ol same ol, I am not going to fit into your life the way we both need. If you don’t have it in you to give me more and make me give you more, again, we are not a good fit. This could be any type of relationship, not just a romantic one. This is why I pride myself on the quality of friendships that I have. I don’t have but just a handful of friends, and some acquaintances, and like to keep it that way and I find that more introduces drama. I hate drama. I will run as fast from it as it tried to squirm into my life. Drama sucks!

No, I am not better than anyone. I have flaws, I bleed, I feel pain, I dream, I love, and I am loved. What I am though is intuitive. I can see right through falsehoods and people just using me, or trying to use me. I can see when people are reliable, and I can see when they are just around me waiting for something better. How cruel some people are. Truly, I do not understand some people.

Some people demand respect, yet they lack the ability to show the same respect and just expect you to give and give and they give nothing. If and when I want something, I will go after it. I will make it known that I want it…But..If I don’t feel the same from the other party, my ‘trying” ceases as I am no one’s doormat and not here to be someone’s cheerleader when I am not getting some credit or some attention.

I just want someone to love me, to be real with me, to show me all of them, and let me show them all of me. It is not too difficult to ask, is it? I don’t mean to sound jaded…I am not. I just want what I want and here is my place to vent and get things off my chest…to get the monkey off my back for a lack of better term. 🙂

Love and plasma!


Posted: 09/02/2010 in Life
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The only thing we can’t do anything in this world is TIME. Whatever we do, how we like to stop it, even if we kill all the clocks in this world, time is ticking; your time is ticking, and so is mine. For them time is gold, but for me, it isn’t, Its LIFE. If we used all our time, we lose our life, but if we lose all our gold, it doesn’t mean we lost our life.

For all these years, scientists have been searching for solutions to prolong life. But to no avail. What we have are the chemicals and substances that makes the opposite – reduces our life.

Time is life. Although we can’t do much about time, at least we can save them and by doing so, we prolong our life in a way. How?

Supposed we have to live 60 years. Every day we sleep 8 hours average but we only need 6, we kill time in the office 2 hours a day, and we’re idle for 2 more hours. Killed time is wasted, and wasted time is wasted life. If we could save 2 hours from sleeping, the wasted time and the idle time together and put it in a bottle, its 6 hours a day; 6 additional hours to your life. Doing the math, its 180 hours per month, about 91.25 days per year, or about 15 more years throughout your lifetime. This is just an illustration of the point; maybe some of us got more life being wasted, and more life to be saved. Just think about it.

Sad thing is we don’t save time in a bottle to spend it later. This will not extend your life further. We just spend our time wisely, by not doing useless things for nothing, by not over sleeping. We use this time to do good to others, to learn something, for ourselves and for others, wisdom and knowledge to be passed on generations to generation.

Work to live, but don’t live to work. Working all your life spends all your available time, and your life with it. It would give you gold, but you can’t use them to buy you more time in the end.

Spend your life wisely. It’s the best thing we had but we don’t always have.

We must reach through the ripples in our minds, touch the object of desires and change it to our will! It does not just exist as you picture it so choose your desires wisely.  

We must take a good look at this world in order to understand exact relationships which stare us in the face every day. We possess the means to feel the vibrations of other life forces in the same way we can instantly move into a creative mode like in music when the song is produced from synchronous mental and physical action. We possess the ability to magnetize the will of civilization with the right idea or picturing in the mind. When we combine this picturing with will and augment the dynamic tension of the mind and body, we increase our psycho-magnetic field and can bend the universe. 

We are always at odds with this collective consciousness. We wish to have a connection to the world but often lose our own visualization skill during the attempt to accomplish this. The key is to maintain the internal skills of seeing this world and projecting that vision into reality in order to bend reality 

Realize, it’s not just an issue of logic because one could imagine with pure logic alone something so powerful it alters reality. It is how low-level logic is used to keep us trapped in society by hypnotizing us into constantly seeing ourselves as weaklings who cannot truly change the status quo.

I am saying that if we strip away everything we think we know about the world, even the past determining the future, we may be able to truly with our inner imagination and visualization alter this world in a way we never would have imagined if we simply played by the rules. I think the key is using the power of all thought to its purest, highest level and be open to the fact that every concept we have been trained to robotically believe in, including the very laws of physics, may be nothing more than bad habits like sedimentary rock which becomes the reality until something new erupts and forces a whole different perspective into the world.

Just remember that we all have a very tight, wonderful concept in general, and understanding. Let’s say you have this moment when all of a sudden all these things that made no sense all instantly clicked in your head and your whole view of the world, the way you even see space and time, changed instantly. We have to believe we can do this or the mundane of routine existence would deaden everything and no evolution, physical or mental could occur.

Staying Positive

Posted: 08/12/2010 in Life
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“There are times to cultivate and create, when you nurture your world and give birth to new ideas and ventures. There are times of flourishing and abundance, when life feels in full bloom, energized and expanding. And there are times of fruition, when things come to an end. They have reached their climax and must be harvested before they begin to fade. And finally of course, there are times that are cold, and cutting and empty, times when the spring of new beginnings seems like a distant dream. Those rhythms in life are natural events. They weave into one another as day follows night, bringing, not messages of hope and fear, but messages of how things are.”

~~~Chogyam Trungpa~~~

Positive outlooks each moment of the day increases happiness within me. Regardless of, the obstacles and negative people I will see on my journey in life. I will begin and end each day with positive thoughts and feelings. I can fall asleep without worrying about the previous day’s events as I can dream positively throughout the night.

Action Reaction

Posted: 08/11/2010 in Life, Thoughts
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We can only see as far as we can think. Real vision starts with our ability to picture and visualize this world.
Ultimately, how we visualize and how strong our will is determines the energy we possess to transform the world.

It is possible to bend the world, to alter reality, to take imagination and blend it with the pain of experience to form a bond beyond this language? 

To bypass the perception of a “problem”, the fastest fix is when we are most able to see ourselves through the eyes of our perceiver as we interact with them while at the same time noticing the universe showing the opportunities to accept what we have visualized already. How one chooses to react is the acceptance or denial of our desires. Reality is being created & recreated every second. In, through & out of form…
We cannot act unless we learn to picture ourselves and this universe first. Otherwise instead of an action, we have a reaction. When we react we are making the world more real than our own perception of ourself in it. The way to act and not react is to maintain absolute clarity when we choose to conceptualize this universe.

Precisely a blend of language that appeals to the soul. 

Stirring, and yet lacking the ego driving pompousness that often can fall in to these conversations. 
The passing of thoughts, words, symbolism, and ideals to drive… to stir… to render. 


Reach for that line. Cross the barriers. Let go and absorb. 
We need to possess to become… in order to experience.
Feel and be truth. 

The binds are usually self erected…
they are false… and “false” will forever be lacking.


Posted: 08/08/2010 in Life, Love
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Everything happens for a reason. maybe you don’t see the reason right now, but when it is fully revealed, it will blow you away.

Reasons happen for everything. You are here because this is where you belong. Right here, Right now.

I recall hearing a story about a girl who was fired from a major holding company and she was so furious that security had to escort her out of the building. That next day, sitting in her living room, eating breakfast, she watched the news as the two planes crashed into the World Trade Twin Towers in NYC. She had worked in the second tower…

Life is simple, yet so complex. Yesterday is a memory. Tomorrow is the future. Today is what you should be living. Live in the moment and be content with what is in front of you. We all want more and we want it now. Patience is possibly the hardest thing in our day-to-day lives. I know it is for me.

We all say it, “we are living for tomorrow.” What a stupid statement.

Now is the only time that makes sense to live. Yes, we can all plan for tomorrow, but both you and I know that plans change. Life can be one big interrupter to our plans. That’s when life sucks and is disappointing. But, who did that? You did. You made plans for tomorrow instead of living in the moment. I am thoroughly convinced that people who plan for the future are not happy with their lives. Young, old, rich, poor, we all do it.

We all meet people everyday, and some are subtle reminders and others make an impact that change us forever. What was the reason we met those individuals? We may not know exactly the reasoning at that very moment, but time tells everything. Stay focused and stay with it, and it will be revealed. Maybe a great friend is in store or the love of your life. Whatever it may be, live in it.

Everything does happen for a reason.



Posted: 08/04/2010 in Life, Thoughts
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“Speak the truth, even if your voice shakes”

I recently saw this on a bumper sticker. Pulling off the road to write it down, I kept repeating it so I wouldn’t forget it. Speak the truth, even if your voice shakes.

That statement is brilliant.

Let’s evolve for a second in an analogy of apologizing. There is “I’m sorry” and then there is “I am sorry” with the trembling in the voice. Which one would sound more sincere to you? Your answer will determine not only how you apologize but also how you see things for what they are.

Life is hard enough, so I don’t understand how people have the time nor the energy for additional drama in their life, except that they enjoy the attention. Being genuine is a lost art in this world. It’s sad to me for when I was growing up, it was your name that you protected and valued. Today, we value who has the most toys, and who can virtually beat up another person. I have to add, that if you are a twitter follower of mine and you feel you can ‘beat me up’ online, what a sad sad person you are. Come to my house. I will be happy to give you my address. I am 45 and 40mm and a pitbull that I would like to introduce you too. Or, you could just get a life and start being a grown up.

Ok, back on track. Speak the truth, even if your voice shakes.

Apologies are like a ton of bricks being lifted off  shoulders because it is something that always needs to be done.  So, s
peak the truth, even if your voice shakes.

Let’s start being forthcoming and in that, being honest about what you are speaking about.

Speak the truth, even if your voice shakes. It will set you free.

Attention Span

Posted: 08/03/2010 in Life

So, as you can tell from the lack of posting for the past eight months, I have either been:

A. Busy
B. Lazy
C.  ____Insert your own wording here
D. All of the above

Ok, so before you begin to judge me, look at all the blogs you started and never finished or didn’t keep up with. Then fill in your word in C. I say this with every ounce sarcasm I can possibly muster up.

A lot has happened in my world. Things that I will tell you, things you will have to wonder about, and something you will never know unless you give me the reason to trust you. The latter…not most likely to win as I am Lee, the invisible character on the X-Files…the one who would whisper, Trust No One” after they did.

I have so much in my head that I want to share. My head is swarming, exploding of words and imagery that is all blurred together like an old tie dye shirt. I want to put on my vinyl of Grateful Dead and light up a bowl. Maybe then my fingers would type faster than they are now, and my head would make sense of the scramble going on in there.

So, for now, I write giving you my multiple choice excuses for not writing, and also giving you my solemn semi promise that I will continue on writing each and every day. Maybe even more, if you are lucky.

Spread the word and tell your friends…

Things are going to become interesting from here on out.

Life Skies

Posted: 12/28/2009 in Life
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The sky is above us. It is endless, vast, ever present yet ever changing. It is not an abstract philosophical concept but a daily presence. The wind blows through its blue expanse. The clouds gather and disappear in its vastness. Without its air we could not breathe. Without the sun, we could not live. We can not live without the essential elements of the sky and the earth.

The human spirit is great and is not content unless it has greatness as vast as the sky’s in which to roam.

Life is a living path. A path that sustains you guides you and leads you to innumerable rich experiences.

Life is endless and flows in all directions. Make use of all that is before you, as if we swim in a river, we should make use of its current.