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In honor of those that have a problem with people not addressing me correctly, the following blog post is being written to make those of you that do not know, aware. Frankly, I do not give a care in the world as I am confident in who I am and more importantly, I am on Twitter for fun. Nothing less.

To those of you that don’t know or understand, yes I am a woman. if you read my profile “queer butch” should explain it fully but I am under the assumption that because I speak of ‘my wife” some of you do the same in assuming, I am male.

I am not offended or feel disrespected when some of you refer me as ‘he/him’ so please do not apologize.

Let bygones be bygone.

To end this…I eat more pussy than most of you males ever will or do and am very, very, very good at it.  *wink*

I love you all xoxo


Posted: 12/09/2010 in Blogging
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“It will cost you sweat and tears, and perhaps…
 a little blood.”

-Nosferatu: A Symphony of Horror(1922)

It delights my wee little soul this time of the year (or really anytime)
to watch this classic… If you have not checked it out …I also
included a link to where you can see the full movie.

Also, I highly recommend “Shadow of the Vampire”…
such a cult hit from an interesting take on “Nosferatu”.

Full Movie


~love & plasma~

Is this your wife? What a lovely throat.”

1. Never apologize for acting on your instincts.
 Listening to your body then taking action on what you hear
 is the hallmark of heroic people.

2. Never apologize for all the tears you’ve cried.
Crying cleanses the soul. Shoot for once a month.
Even if it’s just a brief mist at a tender moment in a sad movie.

3. Never apologize for anything in your resume/portfolio.
If you feel the need to do so, it probably doesn’t belong
in there in the first place.

4. Never apologize for asking for what you need.
The answer to every question you DON’T ask is always no.

5. Never apologize for asking questions.
 When you stop asking questions,
you don’t just run out of answers you run out of hope.

6. Never apologize for asserting yourself.
 The word assert comes from the Latin asserere, which means,
to claim, maintain or affirm. And that’s exactly what you’re entitled to:
 Your opinion. Your belief. Your say.
Let nobody take it away from you.

7. Never apologize for being a health nut.
Next time someone says, What are you, on a diet or something?
 look them straight in the eye and say,
Yeah you got a problem with that?
Then, when they back down, you go right back to eating your tofu.

8. Never apologize for being a newbie.
Everyone great chess master was once a beginner.

9. Never apologize for being early for an appointment.
In the history of Corporate America, no employee has ever been
 fired for consistently arriving ten minutes early to every meeting.

10. Never apologize for being funny.
The world is too damn serious. We need you. Seriously.

11. Never apologize for being human.
Once you do, you’re no longer human you’re a cyborg.

12. Never apologize for being passionate.
Unless you’re passionate about stabbing strangers with
broken Coke bottles.

13. Never apologize for being smart.
 That’s the ONE thing the government, the media
 (and every other entity that’s trying to control you)
 is terrified of: Smart people who take action. Be one of those people.

14. Never apologize for being the age that you are.
It’s just a number. A chicken ain’t nothing but a bird, as my Grandpa likes to say.

15. Never apologize for breaking a rule that isn’t really a rule.
Be proud of yourself for being a rule breaker.
Then go break another one.

16. Never apologize for calling bullshit on someone.
Especially when nobody else is the room is going to do
 it and this person REALLY needs to be taken to task.

17. Never apologize for demanding respect.
If you’ve demonstrated that you deserve respect by giving it to others first,
you’re good to go.

18. Never apologize for disagreeing.
Especially if you do so respectfully. On the other hand,
if you’re disagreeing for the sake of disagreeing,
or because of your pathological need to be right,
that’s a different story.

19. Never apologize for expressing yourself.
That’s all “leadership” is:
The full, free expression of your truth.
 Don’t say you’re sorry for that.

20. Never apologize for falling in love.
Your heart’s calling the shots.

21. Never apologize for falling OUT of love.
Your heart’s still calling the shots
even when you throw up an air ball.

22. Never apologize for getting something off your chest.
That which you suppress will find a home in your body.
And then it will trash the place.

23. Never apologize for giving it your best shot.
 As my Grandpa also reminded me,
“You do the best you can with as many as you can.

24. Never apologize for growing up privileged.
As long as you scrap the entitlement attitude,
remain grateful for everything you’ve ever been given
and respect the life situation of those who are less fortunate, it’s all good.

25. Never apologize for having an overabundance of love in your life.
Instead, circulate what you’ve got. Pay it forward.
Share it. People need it.

26. Never apologize for lack of experience.
Instead, share your Learning Plan; demonstrate
your dedication to lifelong learning and practice
becoming the world’s expert at learning from your experiences.

27. Never apologize for lack of information.
Ignorance is acceptable. Staying ignorant, however, is stupid.

28. Never apologize for liking stupid movies.
Movie snobs annoy me. Some of my favorite movies
are among the most ridiculous films ever made.
So I love Hangover. Sue me

29. Never apologize for living your truth.
Few things in the world are more important.

30. Never apologize for looking out for yourself.
Self-preservation is a primary driver of human behavior.
 It’s how we’re wired.

31. Never apologize for loving yourself.
If you do, you probably don’t love yourself as much as you thought.

32. Never apologize for making a decision from the heart.
Remember: It’s not thee truth it’s YOUR truth.

33. Never apologize for needing alone time.
Solitude is soil. Solitude is medicine.
And if you don’t get your fix every day, your life will suffer.

34. Never apologize for needing to use the bathroom.
Yesterday a woman in my class walked out of the
room and actually said to the instructor,
I have to pee, I’m SO sorry. Unbelievable.

35. Never apologize for not being there when someone called.
You have a life, too. People can’t expect you to wait eagerly
by the phone all hours of the day.

36. Never apologize for not embracing someone else’s agenda.
Especially if that agenda robs you of your true talent.

37. Never apologize for occasional absentmindedness.
Everyone’s brain farts.
Be well & Be good to each other.


Posted: 12/01/2010 in Blogging, Thoughts
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There are a myriad of things about myself
which over the years that I have gracefully accepted as flaws,
be they physical or emotional.
Being honest has never been one of them.
I am, and have always been a truth teller. I cannot be anything else,
and it is a quality that I both greatly value and am admired/hated for.
With or without the veil of comedic timing/style,
my commentary comes from the gut.
And as I have grown older, I rarely “edit” myself in conversation.
I keep it fresh and brutal that way. People can take it or leave it,
I tell it like it is, hold nothing back, and have made many enemies because of it.
I am honest and also misunderstood.
The misunderstanding stems from people’s general lack of intelligence,
or perhaps their own pre-conceived notions of who I am,
and what I am trying to say.
It is what it is…  seriously.  Take it or leave it.  I would if it were reversed.

The polarization of our thoughts,
the inner ideologies that clash with one another,
our judgments and opinions, are a road to solace.
 A way of actualizing our potential…as human animals

Leaning on Her

Posted: 12/01/2010 in Blogging, Writing
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An entire curvature, for a change!
So many others are broken up into arcs
By the cunning construction

And also the panting
Of this face-down, prone body

Which is a world unto itself and therefore surely worthy,

when pausing from
        passionate activity
Of our closer examination,

lingering attention and leisurely ocular study
The particular curvature along which our eyes adventure
Begins with the slight indentation
At the nape of her neck, roams down below her collarbone
And between shoulder blades and rear of ribcage,

Arching down further then to the hollow of her waistline

–offering to travelers aboard this
        highly educational visual roller-coaster

A chance to pause amidst observations there,

and take a little breather.


–there it goes again, that same spine
Arching outwards and upwards this time,
only to form a deep dividing-line
On either side of which lie twin globes,

each of which when properly seen,

        presents yet another fascinating world unto itself
For study, observation and perhaps eventual exploration
As does the shadowy division lying between

–as the case may be…

So, let our eyes rest for a while, even if only temporarily,

      on that little stable plateau in the hollow
At the back of this woman’s waist
Before going on….


Someday’s I laugh so much at the fail attempt of some people. How they cowardly assume or attempt to come across as some rock star in the world. To those of you who do this, whether consciously or not, you are one hit wonders, and that one attempt is/was only online. Is that really where you want to be a rock star? Online? If so, I somewhat pity you if not before I dismiss you.

If you have to write your blogs using synonyms to use big words, most likely you are compensating for what you surely do not know. Big words do not make someone a rock star and if they do, most likely they are my alma mater from the colleges I attended. I assure you, the persons I am writing this too, are far from even attempting to write the essay to attend such colleges, not to extend, find where they could actually apply. Does my attending college to obtain my Masters in MBA make me a rock star? Hell no. It’s just a piece of paper. But, it does however not make me a pseudo anything, except in your eyes, because you could not handle having a decent conversation with me as I would throw you under the bus with your ignorance.

However, I am sure your feathers will once again get ruffled, you will gather the family to discuss your next plan of action in your “writing in your blogs” …oh and don’t forget those synonyms…they are quite important in your attention-getting to those same commentors.

Psss…rock star is two words, not one. Just saying


Posted: 11/28/2010 in Blogging
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I touch life in a fleeting moment between vision and calignosity and even in the darkness I see the shadows of my life.


I venture only to find that dreamers are few and far in between the dream and the vision.

Stepping up to the podium…

I honestly don’t know where to begin in this post. I want to just tell you all to just stop the idiot behavior, shake you, and some, I even want to punch in the throat. Come on people, wake up. The haunting of disgust unravels in my head within a downward spiral when its brought to my attention of purely disgusting behavior online. Yes, online.

You that hide behind your computer screen and act bad ass and take out on the world, or individual people, the backlash that you receive everyday in your own lives. Do you really think that coming home after getting beat up mentally and emotionally from your job or whatever you do, and making people’s lives miserable online makes you a bad ass? Think again. It shows the real you. It shows how un-bad-ass you really are. Some of you, I want to hunt down and dare you to speak to me that way in person. I may be little, but my tongue can/will rip you down one side and down the other and I will make you bleed. Why? Because I am not afraid of the morons who think they can bully other people. Who cause people to cry or unravel because of your appalling ways. People know that I will always come to their defense and that I will even intervene where it isn’t my business because I can’t deal with you assholes who think your better than anyone.

My god, we are a community. We are a family. I am ashamed of you that use the online medium to attack others. I spit you out and grind you into the dirt with every other low life out there. Do you think you are any better than a murderer, rapist, someone who commits assault and battery? In my eyes, and in many others, you are just alike. The sin may be different, but the cause and effect are the same. You judge and act all high and mighty but you are a coward, because a real man or woman, is silent. They let things roll off their back because, YOU ARE NOTHING!

You post your tweets of hatred, trying to get a high-five and make people think you are the one to come running to when they need help, but in the end, when they need your help, you run like a fucking sissy because you don’t know your ass from your elbow about life or relationships.

Calming down…

In my humble opinion, if you use twitter, a blog, facebook, etc to bash someone, you are a despicable, pathetic fool, and again, shame on you.

If you’re so enthralled in saving face, and protect yourself, your family, your wife, your husband, etc..why don’t you do just that?? You wonder why half of you don’t have a decent relationship or are miserable in one, because you spend a quality of time online bashing others. Pay attention to whats in front of you instead of your past. You bitching about everyone in your past really just shows that you were really the problem. It makes me laugh when people bitch, whine, and complain about this one and that one, my ex, my ex husband, etc…if you have that many complaints, it really just shows what an asshole you really are/were. Not them. Trust me, you expose yourself to the light every time you do it.

Calling someone fat when you are a heavy weight non-champion yourself, really, does that make you feel bad ass? Look in the mirror. Come on…go look.

Calling people’s work or families and be malicious, causing one to lose their job or cause families to fight…really, you are a disgusting piece of shit. Shame shame shame on YOU.

We have it hard enough out there as it is. Don’t you agree?

Aren’t you miserable in the indulgence of your own self-hatred? Do you ever stop to wonder why it is that you have no friends in “real’ life? Do you ever wonder why you get so easily offended when “real” life people say something to you that you may be ignorant to or feel like they made fun of you in some way?

If you answered yes to any of those, it most likely means, wake up…grow up…and step away from the computer and get a life.

To those of you that swing around marriage as if its like a day at Disney World, really? Your going to say something about others just looking to get their MR. or MRS degree? You, that married, weeks after you met you wife or husband..isn’t that what YOU did??? I’m curious…tell me. I can take it.

I am sure some of you will read this and think its all about you and make it about you…well, if you do, most likely it’s FOR you.

I am 44 going on 45 very soon, and I am so thankful I am grown up and don’t use online to attack anyone. I may stand up and speak my mind, but tell me one time, I used blogs or a tweet to abuse someone? You won’t find one. What you will find, is me coming to the rescue of others because I am not afraid of you…let me repeat, I am not afraid of you. I have reported many people for cyber bullying, including some just today. Oh and make no mistake…I don’t report to the online outlet some may use…no I go right to the authorities.

On a side note, duct tape, twist ties and print screen are some of the most wonderful inventions made for us.

Ok…I am done
For now…


Posted: 12/30/2009 in Blogging

You are never:

Too sensitive
Too Serious
Too particular
Too _______

What you may be is:

More sensitive
More serious
More particular

 …than the people you’re around feel comfortable with.

A Quote to Always Remember

Posted: 12/29/2009 in Blogging

The way we relate to others is just another way we relate to ourselves.

Six Feet Under

Think About it

Posted: 12/28/2009 in Blogging

Rushing headlong into those
Perfect moments when you
Efforts become a thing of
Balance and grace
Sometimes everything just comes together.

Silent Muse Sonnet

Posted: 12/27/2009 in Blogging
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I can identify with your poetry,
much more than just those long paragraphs,
this starts out so strong with this unrelenting will of the spirit to survive as you so brilliantly put it ,
to be reborn and come out from those black flames of torrential reign,
oh you have me convinced tonight and I am beginning to understand the connection of vibes through this virtual world here,
because today I did go through that torrential reign of my own inner demons and those that were cast upon me,
and they were tearing my soul to bits today,
with so much negative that I could barely stand it but this flame,
and this passion and heat does not want to go out,
and the hunger and lust for life will never give in and it will make me rise above everything that is clouding my spirit and my mind
and I will emerge from that frozen lake and come out mightier and more sensual than a thunderstorm at midnight

Express Yourself

Posted: 12/26/2009 in Blogging
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Do you worry about a lot of things that aren’t really important, and in the grand scheme of things are really insignificant? When you let those things go, you will able to take life, work, relationships, so much more seriously.

Where does worrying get you? Can you change the fact of the matter? No! So, laugh about things, instead of getting upset, angry, and stressed. Life is what it is. It’s a spiritual practice, taking time to plan, work, and having patience.

It is so important to listen to yourself. Pay Attention!

You have to have a strong relationship with yourself and in doing so, it is very comforting, although sometimes we all get antsy about what is going to happen, what will come. We always want to know.

Sometimes, writing helps when your heart is hurting, sometimes taking a picture, writing a poem, just express yourself.

It is comforting.

Preface to the Silent Musings

Posted: 12/25/2009 in Blogging
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Being alive is to pay attention to this moment in time and this moment in space. The potent combination of attention, fascination, reflection, and contemplation produces apperception, which happens whenever the mind becomes aware of itself. Mercilessly, exposed in the bright light of awareness–apperception casts no shadows. We must, in such an altered state of conciousness, take a quantum leap from the enlightened state and go beyond it. To go beyond enlightenment and into actual freedom, to escape the emotional play in the fertile imagination of the sugar-coated swans of this actual world that underpin the illusory grim and glum of everyday reality.

Alas, my Silent Musing begins…